Monday, August 2, 2010


My Baby,
always have I loved you, never would I abandon you.
Since the moment of your becoming,
I have never been the same.
What memories I have of your solid kicks, your hiccups, rolling around in my womb.

You make me smile.
I remember birthing you.
The water of the tub hummed as I OM 'd through each agony.
You could hear me, I know, singing you into the world.

I dreampt of a life for you beyond mine.

Know this, little one,
It was I who caught your shoulders and lifted you gently to my chest.
Oh you were brave!
So loud and vocal, so feminine in sound.
Your strong little arms waved until you settled.
Your eyes looked into mine and you blinked like you knew me.
My soul knows yours of that I'm certain.

I wrapped my arms around you, as I am now, keeping you warm and securing you in love.

When you struggle, I struggle with you.
Would that I could will these anguishes away.
I fight with my heart.
I long for you to live, every instinct screams within me.

Yet I am coming to peace with letting you go.
You slip a little furthur each day.
One day I know you will slip away from me.

I pray that you will allow me to be there, at your final breath.
Our deaths are our greatest moment- our graduation from this life.
You are weathering this life with such grace.
Your strength and beauty inspires me to poetry.
I am so proud of you.

Many things have changed, but never has my love.
My respect for you deepens with each passing day.
You are my greatest teacher.

My Baby.


  1. Beautiful. She is so lucky to have you. Bless you and your family :)

  2. Absolutely breathtaking and lovely.

  3. So Beautiful! My thoughts are with you both.

  4. I have just found your blog through the breastmilk sharing page on Facebook. I am in Australia and unable to help with breastmilk donations but your poem just brought tears streaming down my face.

    Much love from my family to yours. What a precious joy Anaya is. And what a lucky girl to have you as her mother.

  5. Camara, your poem is so beautiful, it brings tears to my eyes. I can't imgagine what you and your family are going through. You are a strong, amazing woman and Anaya and Solara are so lucky to have you as their mother. From our family to yours, lots of love and best wishes!


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