I find the post that Natalie wrote to be profound. Perhaps I am "Never Not Broken", perhaps I harness my fear and ride it. Perhaps that's why I sometimes scare people with my intensity and my inability to see obstacles that cannot be overcome.
I find most obstacles overcome able. I am like water. I flow. Sometimes I fall, sometimes I go slowly, sometimes swiftly, but I trust that I will get to the ocean eventually. I trust and have faith that I will always make it around the bend, and over the next set of falls.
Maybe one day I'll have someone to share my journey with that is on the same page as me, or maybe not. It must be intense to be around someone like me who is "never not broken".
My baby girl lays beside me, and I listen to her breathing. Her life has changed me in ways so profound I can hardly explain with words. My little teacher. She has taught me more than anything to live in the moment, love with all your heart, give everything you have, and hold nothing back, even if it breaks you repeatedly. I am still whole in my brokenness.
The fundraiser held over the past 48 hours has generated some money. It is enough for me to stay with my baby, enough to buy her carseat and supplies, it has bought us stress free time together to LIVE and LOVE. I thank everyone for that with all my heart and soul. Our moments are precious. Not just mine and Anaya's but each and every one of YOURS too. Be sure to make certain the people you love in your life know it. Take a moment to truly connect with their soul, bask in the profoundness that is the joy of human love and connection. It doesn't get any better than that folks. It just plain doesn't.
I LOVE YOU ALL.
(Even the hater that's been sending me nasty email all day!- You must really have a lot of hurt inside you that makes you say such ignorant things)
There's always room for more love - and if there isn't room, it's your own issue to deal with.
P.S- Texas, I'm so gonna whoop ya for missing this one. Where the heck are you?