Anaya and I both slept very well. We are comfortable and have been gently welcomed into Natalie and Geoff's home. Natalie is doing a great job of taking care of us, and organizing people to help me and Anaya. Thank you Natalie - and Thank you to everyone who has helped, or has offered to help in any way.
Today we are hoping to go on an outing to find Solara a birthday present as it is her 9th birthday on May 31. I have a couple of ideas and we'll see how it pans out.
Today I'm also writing with a purpose because I want to fill you in on a major shift that is taking place in our lives.
You may have noticed that I seldom write about Anaya's father, Brent. I also do not write about our relationship, and it's struggles, because I attempt to do my best to focus on the positive. I attempt to use this blog to really express how I'm feeling about Anaya, and to let people know how Anaya is doing.
Brent and I have decided to go our separate ways after a couple years of attempting to reconcile our differences. This happened the day that I brought Anaya down to the hospital to attempt to get some respite and help - as I was throughly exhausted and emotionally drained. We are amiable in our separation, and plan on parenting Anaya together. He is currently moving to his own space. Solara, Anaya and I will live alone in our little rainbow house. Me and my girls :) Brent will be coming to visit and help care for Anaya as his work schedule allows, as often as he wants.
The timing for this separation is intense, however it had to happen and I am glad for it. I do not feel incredible sadness or loss. I feel friendship and love for Brent and I pray that will remain in my life. I have some fear of managing my two girls, my special little loves by myself. But I have confidence that this is for the highest good of all parties and that I CAN DO IT! We will need the support of our friends and family to establish a place of love, safety and security within our home. Help with tasks, etc.
At the moment I can feel a support network of love holding us up, and a security and confidence within myself that says I cannot fail.
With love to you all,